trying to escape, open.

[sahara 'star' sawyer]

( ( Sahara Star , ) )


( ( but i'm strugglin', ) )

-----------------------------------

Finally she stepped out of her house. After two straight weeks, and sure, to some people that might drive them crazy. But to Sahara, she felt safe. More safe than she ever haD, well ever since the night she was attacked for no reason. It all happened so fast, she was just walking home and some man mugged her. He asked for everything she had, but...she dint have to much at the time. She could still feel the slashes being created on her skin, she couldnt remember his face, she could remember how loud she was asking for help, begging him to leave her alone. She could ever remember waking up in a hospital. She couldnt create a steady picture of what happened that night. She never felt like she was a threat to anyone, not to many people disliked her. She never thought that would be a night that she could've died. She viewed it as every other night. Living off of her dad's money, going to the club, hanging out, waking up with a hangover. Then trying to find work. She was a dreamer though, although it didnt seem like it. She wanted to design, anything, clothes, shoes, webpages. Most of all she wanted to sing, she wanted everyone to know who she was.

Now that was the complete opposite of how she was today. Dreaming wasnt even a word in her vocabulary. More like...nightmares. She locked herself in her room and only had one friend. She even worked form home, pay was alright but she could do so much more if she had followed what she use to call her dreams. She didn't trust anyone, not even the librarian she's known since she's been here. Not even the grocery man that gave her everything half off. Not even the lady she use to pass everyday when she took her morning runs. She trusted absolutely no one, only that 1 friend. He was more to a friend than her, she actually liked him alot. She could see herself being with him, well ofcourse,...she couldnt see herself with anyone else. She wouldnt allow herself to..


Sahara walked into the library. It was a public place..sure...but it was pretty late and she figured everyone would be getting ready to party. They did party out here in settle a lot, surprisingly. Not to many people came to the library, and every here and there she would have to study for her online courses. Those where the days she hated. She hated it when random people would try to talk to her, if she were the old her she wouldnt mind. Buts he wasnt...she was completely paranoid. She walked down the rows and grabbed herself the book she needed, she silently made her way to a table and sat down. Looking around her quickly she opened up her book. After reading the first couple of lined out of the chapter she needed to read she looked around again, then quickly paced her eyes back onto the words in the book.

( ( Notes,:: done=]) )
( ( Tag,:: OPEN) )
( ( lyrics,:: Rihanna) )