Post by evelyn thompson on Nov 15, 2008 23:59:08 GMT -6
Is there really a lie and a memory I try and keep hidden but, some how it keeps bubbling up in my mind when I least expect it?
Well, yeah there is. Of course there is and not even my parents or old friends let alone the guy knows it.
Why?
Because when it happened I was young and afraid to tell my parents what was going on. So I let everyone including them thinking I was getting fat and then suddenly the fat "went away", (Ok that was how my mom saw it.)
What was it? And when?
The lie I had to cover up and the memory that just wont go away is that the summer before sophmore year of high school I got pregnant by a guy that lived next door to me. I thought I was in love and wanted to have his children. Yeah well that was till I found out I wasnt his only "bed Buddy" that he got pregnant. He had gotten a few girls I hated pregnant as well as some girls I regularly hung out with during school. From then on i hated and resented him.
What did I do?
Well i knew I wasnt ready so before the baby got too far along I ended up going through with an abortion.
Do I regret it? Even a little?
Well of course i do. I regret not having the baby and giving it a happy and good life.
Well, yeah there is. Of course there is and not even my parents or old friends let alone the guy knows it.
Why?
Because when it happened I was young and afraid to tell my parents what was going on. So I let everyone including them thinking I was getting fat and then suddenly the fat "went away", (Ok that was how my mom saw it.)
What was it? And when?
The lie I had to cover up and the memory that just wont go away is that the summer before sophmore year of high school I got pregnant by a guy that lived next door to me. I thought I was in love and wanted to have his children. Yeah well that was till I found out I wasnt his only "bed Buddy" that he got pregnant. He had gotten a few girls I hated pregnant as well as some girls I regularly hung out with during school. From then on i hated and resented him.
What did I do?
Well i knew I wasnt ready so before the baby got too far along I ended up going through with an abortion.
Do I regret it? Even a little?
Well of course i do. I regret not having the baby and giving it a happy and good life.
